I’ve had great intentions to blog lately, but life has been a little upside down the last few weeks.

Happy, Happy Resurrection Day since I didn’t say it April 12th! We had two wonderful services at St. Francis Community Church celebrating the Truth that He is Alive!

Then at 2:15 am on the 13th, our phone rang telling us that an ambulance was on the way to pick up Marge Webster, my Dad’s wife, who suffered massive bleeding to the brain. I spent most of the week at the hospital, clinging to Truth, that God is greater than brain injury, that He listens when we call out to Him and that in this day, He still performs miracles.

Being in the medical field, I can understand the direness of circumstance….but God!

My Faith person wars with the Medical person inside me as I listen to the doctors say there is no hope of recovery…but God!

I speak words of hope and belief into the unbelief in the waiting room of those who have never met the Truth of Christ and say…”That is what the doctor’s say……but God!”

In 2004, my family experienced a miracle when my brother-in-law and sister were in a motorcycle accident and he experienced a “non-survivable head injury,” and then was miraculously restored to health—welcoming 4 grandbabies into our family since that time and will soon walk his only daughter down the aisle.

Dire circumstances.

But God!

As we sat at the hospital with Marge, another family member who is in the health care field looked at me with pity as I spoke words of hope and life and healing. Her look said what her mouth didn’t—I obviously just didn’t understand the gravity of the situation. She insisted we look at the CT scan. She insisted the doctor explain to us that the brain tissue doesn’t regenerate. She insisted on asking questions that she already knew the answers to about what medical science says about this type of catastrophic event……

I also am aware of all the answers from modern medicine, but the difference is, I also know my God who is full of life and mercy and love and grace and arises with healing in His wings. (Malachi 4:2)

I know that Christ took on all our sin and disease and by His stripes we are healed. (Isaiah 53:5)

I know that we are to pray for one another that we might be healed and that the prayer of a righteous man availed much and that covered by His blood, God sees me in His righteousness. (James 5:16, Romans 5:9)

I know that when Jesus walked the earth, He did many miracles of healing and that He is the same yesterday, today and forever (Hebrews 13:8) which tells me, He will do miracles of healing today!

I also know that the Bible says we do not have because we do not ask…..(James 4:2)

And the Bible also says He can do exceedingly above all we ask or think according to the POWER THAT WORKS IN US! (Ephesians 3:20, 21)

That is my Truth.

Seriously, I appreciate all that modern medicine can do. I believe that God has allowed mankind to explore and figure out things for the good of mankind, but that never replaces His ultimate plan and purpose and that is for us to rely on Him!

To believe Him! (not just believe in Him, but believe that He is who He says He is and will do what He has said He will do! Big difference!)

That Truth makes all the difference and sets you free from the truth of this world. (John 8:32 “Then you shall know the Truth and the Truth will set you free.”)

That day as family stood in a small overheated room looking at the computer monitor displaying the CT scan, the doctor spoke words of death that robbed our hope. It was as if all of the air had been sucked out of the room and it was a subdued group that returned to the waiting room. A brother said it best; “I feel worse than I did before! It was like he was saying there is no hope!”

That is always the plan of the Enemy of our souls—to steal our hope and insert the lie of the world for the Truth of God!

I had felt the same despair settle over me as I looked at the monitor and heard the words, but I decided to speak Truth instead and so I said, “There is always hope!”

Please understand—I do not always stand in faith. Please understand that I do not understand why God heals some and not others. But over and over, the phrase from Matthew 13:58 ran through my spirit, “Jesus didn’t do many miracles there because of the unbelief of the people.” (I don’t think this says His miracle working power is dependent on our faith, but that when there is a lack of faith in Him, He chooses not to “perform” to convince us to have faith…..but God is God—He can do whatever He chooses! :0)

Many of Marge’s family has never seen His miracle working power. Few of the family know Him, though they were raised in church. If I, who has seen miracles with my own eyes, and who walks with Him daily, chooses to believe the lie instead of my God, how can I expect them to believe? How can I expect Him to answer my prayers if I cannot pray with a measure of faith?

There was a part of me as I chose to speak words of Truth and Life and Hope that warred against my faith. The little voice that said, “Play it safe. What if God doesn’t do a miracle? Won’t your God look bad to them? Won’t they think you are foolish?”

1 Corinthians 1:17 “For Christ did not send me to baptize, but to preach the gospel—not with words of human wisdom, lest the cross of Christ be emptied of its power.”

And then Paul writes this; “FOR THE MESSAGE OF THE CROSS IS FOOLISHNESS TO THOSE WHO ARE PERISHING, BUT TO US WHO ARE BEING SAVED IT IS THE POWER OF GOD.”

And that is what I was looking for—the power of God to show up in a ICU waiting room and hospital bed through the double doors where doctors and nurses did all they could do with the wisdom of the world.

When I left to come home, she was less responsive, despite our prayers. All of the family met with the doctors and the decision was made to keep her comfortable but to let Marge go if she continued to fail and to not perform any heroic, life saving measures. I thought perhaps God was saying, “She lived a full life—it is time for her to come with Me.” and yet, I have always remembered my former Pastor’s words..”You believe Life until death comes….” and so the faithful continued to pray and believe that God could do a miracle and restore Marge to abundant life…..

After two days of comfort care, her vital signs stabilized and she began to awaken, following commands and moving all but her left arm and hand! Today, they will move her to a rehab center to strengthen her muscles and continue her care!

Is it a miracle?

When the doctors saw the change they did another CT scan and said, “Looking at the CT scan, she should not be able to do the things she is doing, but she is.”

That is a miracle in my books! We continue to pray for healing and restoration to health and I am believing that God can and will do that miracle as well!

So…what if the ending had been different?

What if after giving comfort care, Marge had gone home to be with Christ and my Dad was left grieving and lost without her? What then?

My question would be, “Where does your truth come from?” Is it from the One who is Truth or does it depend on circumstance? Just because we don’t understand it, doesn’t make it untrue, even though we live in an age where everyone wants to make their reality the truth.

Romans 3:3-5 says “What if some did not have faith? Will their lack of faith nullify God’s faithfulness? Not at all! Let God be true and every man a liar.”

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9.

Isaiah 45:18-19 says “For this is what the Lord says—he who created the heavens, he is God; he who fashioned and made the earth, he founded it; he did not create it to be empty, but formed it to be inhabited—he says; ‘I am the Lord, and there is no other. I have not spoken in secret from somewhere in a land of darkness; I have not said to Jacob’s descendants, ‘Seek me in vain.’ I, the Lord, speak the truth; I declare what is right.”

And finally, Colossians 2:2,3 “My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely Christ in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.”

As we move closer and closer to the return of Christ, the clamor will get louder concerning what is the truth. Will we BELIEVE Him?

As for me, whether I understand it or even agree with what God chooses, I know that I can trust Him and only He holds the Truth.

Jesus said, “I am the Way, the Truth and the Life” and so despite what circumstances I find myself in, that is good enough for me.

I encourage you, “Seek the Lord while He may be found.”

“Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way and the evil man his thoughts. Let him turn to the Lord and he will have mercy on him and to our God. for he will freely pardon.”

Blessings,

Kim